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i'd rather be alone at times, but sitting next to you for a meal really is the best thing on earth.
it'd kill me if i couldn't make you smile. it'd kill me right on the spot.
hey, i think i owe you joke. i'll tell ya tmrw. +)

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i can't keep thinking about the future, cuz life ain't just about the future. well. i don't live in the future.
mom used to tell me about these distant folks of hers/ours back in hometown who had enjoyed a great deal in their youthful days but were suffering real bad in life and all.
like fun I listened to her nag.
but anyway, it's always on my mind somehow, probably because she told it over and over again.
life is merely each second when we're alive. how about stop thinking about all that future crap and start making sense of every second at hand?
well. how about that?
future will come to find me. just as the JET song goes: 'u just gotta move on.' +)
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well. Jay Chou sang "听妈妈的话".
so probably when mom tells me all about the very old-fogey, old-China stories, I shall keep them in mind anyway. +)
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i've been teaching painting at the very special arts centre lately.
all of a sudden i developed this love for the children. it makes me feel really good, to see little Gabriel and Ron drawing and all. Gabriel doesn't talk much, but when he turns and smiles, it makes me feel good. you have no idea if u don't see it. i saw desmond's sister too. i didn't talk to her but i hope she's happy. +)

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"you think you almost forget about someone because they're not around you until they re-appear in your life in such a lucid form that just strikes you with all the memories from before.."

"i don't know if you've gone through this yet, but it's an excrutiating process, the process of "looking for yourself".. not easy and definitely long-lasting.."

"i realize we can have all the fancy dreams and goals and one day we have to come down to the ground and make a wise decision that ensure a carefree lifestyle that we so used to.."

-- Ivy

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洪晃　＜无目的美好生活＞：
＂我向来力争做追求目的的人，但骨子里却是个追求过程的人，因为我致命的缺点就是贪玩．只要好玩我就想做，管你什么内部回报和屁股钱，不想那么多．所以在一个ＧＤＰ增长七八九个点的经济奇迹中造就了个人财富增长率进入负数的奇迹．＂

在我要求质量，而总是把结果放在第二位时，我亲爱的妈会说，ＧＤＰ虽然七八九个点，但是国家福利不好，你没资本，你没资本．咱耗不起，你还是学科学的好，学心理学疯了怎么办．我妈很猛，是个猛妈．用Yizhou的话说是：＂我靠！＂

＂遍地都是美警察＂这种现象在新加坡被发挥得淋漓尽致．我在包上栓个帽子，被人说 So WEIRD! 我把帽子带头上，So POSEUR! 最离谱的是，如果衣服好看，So GAY!!　而且要用最娘的声调说出来．
国外混血的多，＂混血小孩都好看＂　那是个误会．
这年代开放了，开着灯混的同学们可多了．还有环保意识强，热爱大自然的同学喜欢太阳底下混．

＂以公司为床＂≈以学校为床≈以图书馆为床（厕所都过时了）
现在的同学们都猛了，一句话就是＂我靠！＂

博客主要还是为了让人看，不然写日记本或者写notes就好了．
抽烟，喝酒，做爱，博客，用我们自己的话来说，其实都是为了实现一种＂今夜我最大＂的刺激感，或者是＂小霸王其乐无穷啊＂的感觉．既然是刺激感，那肯定容易上瘾，跟同学们打游戏也是差不多一个道理．我不容易对事物上瘾，有时候体现在我这个人没有钻研精神　:(

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我啥也不懂，就跟着晃阿姨后面马后炮．．．瞎写．
今天好不容易看到喜欢的鞋，全苏州就剩那么一双，可惜穿进去有点挤就放弃了．
希望会有更多的惊喜．

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总决赛开始了，哦也！！

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ROSS and RACHEL
RACHEL and ROSS

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i will work days and nights for you.
you don't have to pay me.
you just have to tell me who she is.
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friends.
sorry for not attending to you.
i'm deeply sorry and frustrated.
in search for your absolution,
i engraved your names under my forearm.
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between my pride and my promise
between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
the words i want to say to you
get lost before they come
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i love you all
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please be happy
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:)

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Arizona surely know how to protect Steve Nash's nose.

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Yetkae!!

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I have no leukemia.

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LEUKAEMIA
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I totally have no fear for death.
I fear incompleteness.
I fear the pains.

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When his literature tutor asked everyone in class to introduce themselves, he remained silent. When the teacher got everyone to write down their names on a sheet, he put down a question mark. "?"

He was nothing but a question mark to people who knew him.

Cho murdered 32 people on Monday morning, more lives than a suicide bombing could usually claim in the Middle East, and more than twice the number of deaths from the Columbine killing. While we see the event as horrific atrocity, unspeakable, pure violence, the media and us have gotten so obsessed with the killing itself. The question had used to be, 'What's on his mind?', but as he died, we just went, 'Oh well, this guy's a madman.' And all those videos and pictures and text merely became syndrome of his schizophrenia.

Didn't we forget that he tried to provide an explanation to his acts in that manifesto? What did we know when we heard him mumble the words "brats" and "snobs" and say he would 'die like Jesus Christ and inspire generations of defenseless people'... Isn't it obvious why I think we are way too obsessed with the killing itself? Cho was compared to a few other equally(or probably not as much) disturbing campus shooters in all possible manners. But when I first watched that video clip of Cho's, two images immediately came to my mind - John Kramer/Jigsaw in Saw, the Death in Final Destination, both of whom executed those who'd failed to appreciate what they had in life. ("brats" & "snobs" based on Cho)

Many of my peers are always unhappy, querulous and greedy. They are so freaking used to taking what they already have for granted. They are, in some way, a group of jaded kids in the developed countries. I've always thought so, and I hate them too, but certainly not so much that I want to kill my classmates and then shoot in my own face (of the year). =.=

Thanks to some bumpy journey of life since 1988, I've suffered too much from frustrations and eventually settled down to feel satisfied with whatever I have at the moment. I've said this in one of the previous posts:

I'M BORED, AND I'M HAPPY. =)

I hope some of these people can complain less about having not enough but start to realise how damn lucky they are. At least stop using their parents' money to satisfy their unbounded needs. Oh oh just a thought, Bush should totally ban guns in all states so he could at least do one thing right before he 'zao' (meaning 'go off' in Singapore if not mistaken).

Cho Seung-hui wanted to send all of us a message.

He first sent that package to the wrong address, but NBC managed to receive it anyhow, and rather stupidly, they broadcast the video on TV, so despite the struggle, that message still went through.

However, few of us are getting the message right, because he chose the wrong method to do it.

That was just not the way.

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Some links:

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6567143.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6564653.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/6577095.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/in_pictures/6571075.stm

http://www.sawmovie.com/site.html

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11/4 Wednesday VICTORIA 11-6 HWA CHONG

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08 April 1994: Kurt Cobain killed himself today.
The 27-year-old rock star had a single gunshot wound to the head. A gun and suicide note were found nearby.
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Who needs the world when I've got you?
Switch off the sun and stars and the moon.

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